A tiring and upset day

25 mac 2010

Today,there's happen something that makes me so angry and upset.That time,it was going to have heavy rain.When I arrived the place,still no one inform me.I saw no one there.I felt strange.Then,I sms one of my classmates but no reply.Later,I call the other.

Then,he told me that the class had cancelled.He said that like before OHR tutorial class the classrape had told us but maybe I was not arrived yet.Then,he thought my friends will tell me.So,he didn't tell me.Haiz...I feel very disappointed to my friends or maybe they think I already know..

Why?Why?My classmates like that.Although I'm not so good with them,but we still are classmates.Why want to make it like that?I dislike some of them.Maybe most of them.I really hope there's better,close or good friend,classmates in my class.I feel like difficult to find close and good friends and classmates in my class.

They are not friendly at all.I dislike them.REALLY DISLIKE THEM.Why should treat me like this?I easy to get mad one.Heavy rain again.Morning hot,evening raining.MY mood also like that.Happy then angry,upset and disappointed.Need to calm down.

Chin yi Birthday

23 march is chin yi's birthday.Yesterday,I was going out with felicia and june to go yam cha with chen neng.A tired day too.We met chen neng at times square.I drink at starbucks for the first time.It's coffee is expensive so normally we will not go there to have a drink or yam cha there.After that,felicia and june help to choose and buy present for chin yi.He's our hostel friend.We celebrate his birthday at ai mian zi at wangsa maju there.Then,daniel responsible to buy cake.I feel so tired that day.My class is starts at 11am until 2.30pm.Then,I have my lunch only at 2.30pm.I have to ready and go out with them.I think very rush and tired too.At night,don't know why will think about one guy's feeling about me.haiz...makes me cannot sleep then sleep late again at about 3am in the morning.

The next day,I think like been making noise by someone.I want to sleep de but see the time almost there.So,I wake up then have my breakfast.Then,prepare to attend class.

My feeling

I do not like those who pretend good to me whereas they talk bad behind me.This type of people I

really look at them.In front of me,will pretend smiling to me but at the back hate me.When I

discover this,I was really hurt,sad and confused feeling.Many feeling comes out but now I will

not sad because of them I feel angry with them.However,I will proof to them that they are

wrong opinion towards me.I will let them feel regret of letting me go.I will do my responsibility

not because of them only but for my own good.I will know who treat me good and who treat me

bad.When I am angry or moody,you all better do not disturb me or else I will scold u badly.That

means the persons ask me that question he or she will be scolded by me for no reason.Yesterday

my lecturer taught that part,touch that part.the conflict and communication.double face people.I

have seen a lot for now.I feel that parents or family are the most trust people.If friends.we need

find and choose them carefully.Better trust yourself than those friends that are not trusted.No

happy memory here just left sad and angry memory.I cannot make myself suffering because of

them.I must think for my own good.Angry or sad cannot help me.Complain also no help.I must

stand up to do my responsibility.Learn things fast,catch up things fast.Do things fast.One thing I

do not like is they like last minute doing group assignments.It's not my fault,they want to be like

that.Want me to ask few times only they start doing.I a bit forgot to bring things they dislike me.

Why they are such persons?wasting my time to think this only.Better save my time and energy

to do the useful things.

Reality people

Today,I want to make those who kick me out of their group to regret that I'm not as what they think.I do not like people talk behind my back.I really moody and want to change.Maybe it's my attitude problem.My tutorial class let me see clearly how reality they are.If we are not strong and confident,we cannot be together with them.We must have courage to do it.I will be responsible to do my own works that is given to me.

Moody...

Today I saw my friend's profile.I read what she wrote on the wall post of facebook. After that,I suddenly feel that is it what she wants to say is me.I think a while.I did not hurt anyone before.Maybe sometimes I have hurt them but I did not realized them.I want to apologize to whom I have hurt.I really want to know the reason she write those words there.

These few days,she seems like moody or emo.I do not know why.Last time,we will like to talk together but now I do not know what happen to her,I really want to be friends with her.If she mean that I like that type of person,I really feel hurt.sometimes I am that person but actually I will not hide myself.the characteristics of mine.I have problems in grouping when there's come group assignments.I really will like to contribute but if I do not know how to do.I also cannot help.I have problems in ohr subject again.bms resit need to pay attention.Really like many things to do at the same time.When can I meet my truly best friends whom not betray me or talk at my back?Hope all can be fine again.Lord,please help me.You are the only one that I can trust beside my family.

Friends...

There's one time I met some1 who I like before in canteen 1 at tar college.This is happen at last week mon 1o.30 smthg ba...when we finish lecture...next class is near there.I think if I didn't touch him or call him he won't know it's me there.How I know is him?I also saw his friend,shinI only know shin and he who is called clement.They are with their friends.I saw that the person's back like him..so I want to make sure I'm correct.I went to touch his back.du him.he turned back and saw it's me.I said ei clement ar...then he oso lilian....both of us like stunned a bit.looked at each other a while.then I go with my friends to find seat and put our bags.

While go to choose what to eat,I go to ask him ei...joyce le..he say erm..don't knowle.I actually juz want to find topic to talk only.Long time didn't see him...don't know how was him....that day saw him accidentally..I felt happy...

on wed that week,joyce told us that shin had invited her to go to watch movie with him and his friends.She wants to go but if she go,all are guys.She's the only girl.She wants someone to accompany her.She ask me whether I want to go.I'm ok.I can go with her.Actually...there another friend ask me whether want to go sing k.but I want to save money..so didn't go with them..bcause I agree to go with joyce to watch movie.she say she will ask clement to go too.

on thurs,I wake up in the morning.I just realized that clement sms me whether want to go to watch movie on this friday.Before I sleep on wed,I already checked that there's no sms.So,I go to sleep le...I replied him the next day morning...he didn't straight away reply me...I think less people will sms me there...so..I didn't bring along with me.When I came back,I check the sms.He replied me a question mark.then I told him that I mean yes.He ask me back what he's asking.he forgot dy.I told him that he ask me whether want to go to watch movie on this friday.He then got meh?He think that mayb the message long time ago dy.This friday he back hometown le.Maybe some other time if he's free,he will call me out again.After this sms,I really feel a bit not...comfortable.nan shou...I didn't reply him le.haiz...don't know whether he still like me....I that time wondered if he is the person sms me...

hmmm...don't know how now.The important thing is I need to concentrate on studies....manage my studies well first then others okle...Hope can meet the right guy and with the right guy...I hope that I will like the person who like me too...both of us like each other...one...