17/3/2014

Today, I go early to the citc.The place where we are having tutorial class upstair.This is because I saw Eric's post  that FDM: Mr Soo's comment

Since Mr Lam claim that he will share Mr Soo's comment on how to enhance our report writing on Monday, thus Mr Thye urges us, in fact everyone of us including group 1, 2 and 3 students to come on Monday tutorial (17Mar). So that group 3 students will have the same pace as other groups to amend their reports. While the Saturday (22Mar) tutorial class will be reserved for Q&A session.It may not enough seat for all.I still sit at the first row. 

I look around and I didn't see he's there.Then I think maybe he not come or he late.I don't care first.I concentrate on what's the tutor saying. He mention about he give us one exercise.This is to improve our presentation skill. he ask us to write one place,one action and career.Then, try to make a presentation using these words. the first row came first.The left side start first then only my side. I'm the last one to do at the first row because I'm thinking about talking what. When it's my turn, I just say smthg about doctor at citc and daydreaming..I'm now not really remember what I have said.That time I seen to just look in front .It's to tutor. At first loud.There's one time my voice become soft ba. He ask me to speak louder.Then I speak louder.After that continue and I feel sien so go toilet lo.I don't know when he reach class. When break, I saw he talks with one guy standing outside and look down.I go there.after that they stop.the guy go away and left me and him.I change to other side.We chit chatting. He say are u nervous.I answer how u know de?He told me..aya this is just simply present de..not need so nervous. When finish class, his bag is beside my bag.so when I putting my things inside need time as there's many things.He just put some only.We talk.My leader told me that they went to paparich there eat.ask me to go there later. He tells me to go with them.He will go with his friends.

   I say I have book discussion room for 6 persons at citc at 4pm.Leader say okla..While waiting the room,we find some place outside..sofa there..we can put our labtop there and discuss.3.57pm like that they ask me to go there ask which room.I go ask..the person say to me after 3 minutes at 118 room. We start to pack our things and bring thing there.I saw he and his groupmate oso go in discussion room.They also book at 4pm. The time for those who use the room is up then they tidy their thing and we go inside. I'm thinking to sit where. They already take place. I sit beside leader. See Jun that time is with me.He comes in oso and simply talk. Leader I think make joke ba..about become spy..he say he being pull in. after that he go out.I feel I don't know what to do.It is because need leader to check but then she have no time to check. I just search smthg and fb see . I look at their room see whether he's there.I didn't see him. I thought he went out dy. I just see his other friends. I saw sometimes he go out will pass by our room. Then we greet. After that, I don't know when he comes in and then he talk with me. then he say can let him sit there.We share one chair because there's one chair inside is use by my friend to put thing. he ask me what I doing.I say the chart lo. then he show me use excel to do. I don't know his hand put where..didn't notice his other arm is it put behind me.the chair there.and how he sit.his leg. After a while, my group member say almost reach time dy..6.00pm. if noone use the room maybe will not chase out. He say oh ya..I ask when is his group time in.Is it same as us? CM and Diane go ask Mr.Thye about assignment.He go back and tidy his thing and go with them. We greet and say bye. I search him but he's not there.don't know where he is.Only his other friends. Hui Sian and Alicia ask me is it u two are together.It seems like both of you are together.I say no we just friend. Alicia say he seems to be rely on you. One of them ask me is it he likes you.I say I think no ba. Hui Sian ask he same age as you.I say no. He is younger than me. Will you care about age?I say a bit lo.Then Alicia say not only me like this. Then ask back her. She told us that her bf is older one year than her. Alicia say de green shirt guy we have saw in picture dy. I say nice lea. good looking. He is younger than her. When sms, he told me that he go gym with friends from 7-9pm.His hand is painful because long time no gym then gym so much.Alicia, ,Hui Sian, me and Chien Ming go to sushi bonanza. We queue for don't know how long.maybe 30-45minutes only is our turn to eat. We see Tun wong.I saw Wai Keat, Sin sin there. When our turn to eat, the seat is Tun Wong them sit there. We can take from there the roll. We enjoy eating sushi.I ask Alicia, then which to eat better. She told me the purple plate and red plate those..because normally is expensive and now is rm3 one plate. I took one red plate and ask her whether is this u say is nice and ur friend will always eat. Not sure so ask the staff.one staff say is the same.We eat only. We take those we want to eat de..They eat tempura.I didn't eat because it's prawn. I just eat the fish and others.Salmon, cheese sauce with sushi, one fried de..don't know is what but looks nice and eat oso nice, one fish and lastly the other staff take out the other fish sushi when alicia saw that.She thinks aya..being cheat by the previous staff why say that is the same.The staff ask us whether want.We all take.I eat 5 plates. It's full.When reach home, I can't do anything so resting.bath and resting. I sms see jun. fb him. chatting.chatting till we want sleep. we say good night.

First presentation

 This morning,I went to college early with friend. She wants to print out her notes.I also print out but is in the report format.We choose the seats then click and print. After that, when we finish print out ,we log off from the computer in citc. We went to the Crystal Mah's seat there. We will discuss about assignment thing.Later, Chien Ming reached.Diane and VJ also reached.Diane told us that she choose lots choose number 6 to present. We wait for our turn and see the first group went up to the room to present. Then, we ask how is it?He explained to us roughly. I saw the other members of See Jun's group but didn't see him.Then, I think maybe he will come later. I do my thing first like highlight the point how to present. When I turn my head to the left side, I saw him. I can recognise him because he wears the blue square shirt. It attracts me. I think the shirt is nice. It seems suit to him especially he wears the shirt. It seems like my group have nothing for me to do dy because the other members are doing excel.So, I stand up and went to find him to talk a while. He told me don't know how..still many haven't finish. I ask him his group is which number to present. He told me is number 5.I said 'in front of my group' .My group is number 6 to present. After that, he continue his assignment group discussion or helping them to do. I also went to the seat and see how is the progress. I ask Chien ming about the demand part. I forgot is when I sitting or standing. Not enough chair to sit so I stand. I stress my leg and bend down a while.I stand back. I don't know when he came here. He stands beside me. We talk a while. He told me don't know how.I also say still have more to do and changes. While chatting, maybe I didn't realized.He or me , we are sometimes stand near to each other then move a while out like that. I think is maybe someone ask me about something or I greet someone. Then, he went to his members side there. Maybe don't want disturb me. I finish talking dy ,I look back he's gone.I search him everywhere by looking and I saw him standing with his groupmates near Paparich the notice board there chatting. I think he follows them go have lunch. don't know when they finish lunch, they went in again and talk with Eric's group. They stand near the corner left side citc near the cupboard with books discussing assignment. I saw they went up. I saw they were upstair standing, waiting for their turn to present. When the group before them finish present, they went in and prepare to present. We went up around 12smthg or 1smthg like that. I have look inside the projector,especially when reach the part I do,I saw and think I do too long dy. They are straight to the point. I think they present well. When they finish present, lecturer and tutor gives comment. They come out and some of us ask them. I ask CJun how is it. He say just follow what you write and present.Then say, need to enter lo. Both of us wave hands to each other because he will go back dy and I'm going to present. He said you may feel anxious and nervous. We enter in and start from introduction by me just a opening. I don't know why I read all so become time overuse and I think I'm not good. Sounds soft,not loud enough. We didn't practice,rehearsal estimate the time we use. The tutor told us some group may get high marks some low. As for us, we are just marginal pass that is nearly fail,it's dangerous.especially for the presentation part. In the final presentation, I'm sure will not happen this thing. I will avoid and try my best not to be the one to let whole group low marks. I don't like wait long time to pay resit bill. I happy to see you CJun. When I saw you are close with female friends by touching shoulder or what, I will dislike and chi chu. I don't know it's you think it's normal because you are familiar with them or what. I feel like my heart will beats faster will seeing you. My heart will be melt when talking to you. Your voice makes me feel calm and want to rely on you. I tell myself not to do this. This is because it is not possible to be with you. You are younger than me one year. If I will same age as you, maybe can. I don't want you too tired.You need to sleep enough. I miss the time we both are in the library discussion room discuss about tax. It seems not possible from now onwards.

6/3/2014

6/3/2014
   This morning I went to replacement tutorial class at 9am. When I reach the room, I thought it's him wearing pink shirt.Then, I don't care and take my thing to sit at my seat there. We wait for the class to start.After that, the class started. I went out to take jacket because I feel cold. I saw it's his friend wearing in pink,Kok Hong. I listen to tutor and follow his instruction.After some time, I heard door open then I think it's who late dy. I turn to back and only saw him.I only know he just came. While there is some time given by tutor to let us do the exercise and also to ask question, he went in front and seems like search for something.I just listen to what tutor told the other group about the assignment but not really understand.He's there. He is just beside me. I have ask lecturer about the part that I responsible for the assignment. SJ ,he told me that he thought is 10am class and when he came here, he saw Tun Wong and other eating so he think haven't start yet. He's late. We chat a while then also go in own assignment group and discuss. When nearly finish class, because the tutor told us can leave dy if nothing to ask. Then ,some of them leave.He came in front and ask me whether finish class dy.I told him ya unless you have something to ask tutor and lecturer. Then, he say nothing to ask so he also prepare to go back. Alicia said to me that he is so depend on you .I have nothing to say.I just say he maybe not sure ba. I saw he go out with his assignment group members. My leader want to finish excel file first then only back because she thinks go back she don't know how to do out. I went to toilet first .When I walk out, I saw he is so blur. His friend told him "your bag is there ".Then, he only realized and found his bag. I went to toilet.After I go to class, he went back with his friends dy. I don't know whether he is go discuss assignment and doing assignment with the other members or he just walk back home(TBR). I stay in Citc with my other members and ask things.One member ask leader to check her work. I show how I do to my LCM. He told me that you should understand the law and not just quote the Act from there. That time I so tired because not enough sleep.As for time concern because if e-mail to tutor it's late, he suggest to me and leader that he take the demand part and I just do forex part because I seems unable to handle both.It's seems difficult task.Then, my leader ask him you ok with that?He say ya because that is I teach to her.I also let him to do because I feel so stress to handle two parts. LCM he went back his friend's house sleep first to gain energy as his key to his room is lost. He needs to find solution to enter his room. Leader also back home and I say because I have class at 5pm so I will stay there. That's why I will be more tired than those who didn't repeat.I  was at college from 9smthg in the morning to 9smthg at night.I need to study tax for the cw test 2. Now need to rush assignment first as need to submit by Monday. Until here la.I either will sleep or rush assignment dy.See Jun, you are my motivation. We support each other. I hope I'm your good friend or best friend and not bad friend.I will happy to see you.

SJ

Last two days, I had chat with him.Feel happy to chat with him.He also tired dy and me too.So, we just say nite and off fb. Yesterday ,I saw him on fb but I didn't find him to chat.It's because I have to do research for group assignment and he also need to do assignment.

This morning, I went to college just to collect book voucher and print sfm past year ques and answer with friend. She went to canteen and I went back home.While I was waiting for college bus at the bus stop, I saw his friends and him.They are walking together.I guess they have made appointment together.I know their name.I sitting there nothing to do but when I turn around my head then saw them.He also saw me.His two friends went first then he is sitting down beside me and talk with me.He ask me didn't go donate blood.I say I can't la.I ask him whether he collect book voucher dy.he say ya.He ask me no class today,I replied ya.when have class,if for repeat class,it's monday,tuesday and thursday night.He say so kelian.I didn't reslized when he put his hand around my shoulder my right side.I just concentrate talking with him and look at him.I say tired too. I say I come just to collect book voucher after that nothing to do,I ask him what can I do,he say go back.I ask him eat dy..want to eat together?He say he have group discussion about assignment with them..oo..They went to book a room for discussion of assignment. After that, he say he had to go first.I say okla with not happy face but also have to let him go because he need to discuss assignment more important thing to do as I also need to do assignment.He remove his hand away from my shoulder and walk away.I just continue to wait bus to go back.I didn't look where he is going to.I think I not dare to see him walk past me.Few minutes more, bus arrived and I saw Alicia's friend then sit with her and talk a while. I don't know  why I can't stop thinking about him.Sometimes I think why I like you.Is it feel or your appearance? I happy when I see you and can talk with you. In front of you,I become more soft. Even other close friend I also not soft with him, but he say he not eat hard but is soft. I know I must concentrate in studies ,doing assignment.So, till here only.I need to do assignment.

Dream

Yesterday sleeping then today wake up in the morning.I don't know why I will have a dream about someone.The dream is he and I at the hall, we are watching show.Then we contacted and he come and find me.That time his friends also find him so we go to find them together.It seems like something important that they need to discuss.Then, they discuss lo.I just listen but don't know what happen.After settle thing, he  bring me to one stall.He buy ABC to eat and drink and ask me whether want to eat together.I refuse because I can't drink cold things.He meet his other friend ,she also buy ABC drink and we sit together.After that ,we tapau food but we see less food dy.He told me still gt some food just few only. He 'pegang' my hand and walk together.He does not want me to walk lost and to be with him.I feel sweet and nice.However, this is just a dream.I suddenly wake up from dream and realized this is not true.Why I have this dream?See Jun, he is younger than me one year.How can I like him and be together with him? I just take it as like only. cannot be more.I know we can't.My friend say you are so soft.As a guy, you will difficult to find gf.

fake person

I can realized and see something from some of you. If you are good and not talk behind me, I will treat you well too but if let me know about you backstep me and talk behind me, you better watch up. I hate those fake persons. I'm now don't want to think about these useless things.Better concentrate for final exam that is coming soon. I hope I can do well at least pass for the subjects. SFM MGT I hope that I can pass.

Issue of assign presentation for assignment sm

Why they did this to me?I also got contribute, okay. The presentation they balance but I'm only have introduction.Don't you all think that it's not balance.Intro can only present about 2 minutes. Other group they present intro also have present some of other parts but you all present all. Then, you all want to let me get low marks and die is it. I'm thinking why I'm so stupid to listen to you all, just present introduction. I'm not as clever and 'jiao hua' as you all. You all think I don't know what you all thinking? I know you say I just present introduction what will be okay? The tutor will be asking why I'm present only this. My individual presentation marks will be low because you all cause it like this. My ideas been stolen but you say I didn't contribute. Now, you didn't say clearly to me that you all have discussion that day and say I didn't come.If I know, I will come. You all seriously don't want me to participate so become like this and blame me la. I just comfort him that I have settle this problem but actually I'm just doing introduction part. I'm really hate and dislike this assignment group members. All like doing nothing and just know cause me fail assignment. Play,play, play. You say you help me when the tutor ask question but I don't think you can help me. It will lessen my marks. My marks already low then you let me do this introduction presentation only. Why I assign to this group argh? Other group they assign better than this. One friend she only do introduction but then she also get to present other part also. Why my assignment group members are like this? They are selfish and no manner. I'm really don't want my marks affected because of this. I hope that their presentation will be low marks and not good because they didn't assign a part for me. It should be have a part for me to present.Next semester assignment, I don't want to be in this assignment group. They are so bad. Last semester, IM assignment group still okay, but this semester I don't know why assign me to this group. I think will be better but it's not. They are bad. It's worse. Lord, please help me.I don't know to be threated by them. I don't want my presentation marks lower than them because of this. They are so bad. I hope you can help me to let them know to change. Let me do some part and not say to me ' we split part already and it's balance .if plus you, it will not balance.'Thinking of this make me mad. I rather not having this group assignment members.