Bad feeling

I feel that I was doing more things than I need to do. I thought he ask me to miss call him every time when there is morning lecture as he scare that he can't wake up.hmm..there's one time I have make the miss call and he sms me that he wake up.The second time is because there's test I don't want him to wake up late so I miss call him and he accept the call.He told me that he has wake up dy that is because he just sleep for few hours and study. He only back to his hometown on Saturday. On Monday morning, I miss call him thought that he will attend the lecture but he only accept after many calls. He told me that he has ask me to call him meh? When I heard this, really my heart not feel good. He ask me not to call him if after few call he not accept. Then I was hurt and angry,I decide not to bother him. As one of my friends told me,no need bother him. It has waste my time and my handphone money. I don't know why the Atm machine in school is out of service and my pocketmoney just left not much. I don't know can last for one day or two days. I hope tomorrow I go to school, the Atm machine is become normal and my card also no problem. When I ask him about what his post the day before, he doesn't want to tell me about that. He really make me worry of him but also hurt. I think of he might be emo or sad when he post those things. Why? I don't know what happen to me. I feel like I want to have freedom and become single. My friend , can you please don't ignore me? This is the first time I wear dress to school but you are not there. So, I don't care what other people think of. Although many friends feel surprise that why I will wear casual dress to school, I just say I feel want to wear then wear. My friends told me that wear like this is ma fan as we need to wait for bus or what.We need to care of not zhou guang. Yes, I also think of that too..so I will really less wear dress. Some say u wear like this like u want show off that u are rich.Then, I wonder wear like also rich? but also got points.So, I will wear t-shirt and jeans like that to school. See Jun, u not coming , u not appreciate is ur lost. Next time, u will not see it dy. I'm now have a bit feeling of hate you. I will not want to see you. I decide to study at home not going college and revise for test. I was thinking are you think of your that girl's friend. She not care u but then u still put in a relationship. She lost u dy and u also lost her. Both of u cannot be together. There's will be a better girl for you. You need to discover by yourselves.